Over and Over- Three Days Grace
I’ve done some permenant solutions to a temporary problem. Actually, at this point. I don’t know if its temporary. Hopefully not, I still have feelings for her and us. And I still have feelings as a real human being. My life has become a mess since that dark day. It feels like a nightmare still. Love hurts but never dies. I totally understand Three Days Grace songs now. “….So many thoughts that I can’t get out of my head. I try to live without you, everytime I do I feel dead. I know whats best for me. But I want you instead. I’ll keep on wasting all my time. Over and Over I fall for you….” I haven’t stopped thinking about her. Sometimes I’ll smile, most times cry. I try really hard to get through this time. It just hurts physically, and emotionally. I haven’t felt this lonely in a long time. Alone and unloved. I’m not trying to get sympathy, I just needed to write everything I felt down before I made a more permanant solution. Tried, just can’t bring myself to do it. But I’m reaching that point. Slowly and slowly. Even Hell couldn’t hurt as much as this. I just hope I forget everything that happend here. Worst part of my life….
Smooth Criminal - Alien Ant Farm (Michael Jackson cover)
I like Fall Out Boy……I knew it all along.
It happend last night. It so weird.
I like Fall Out Boy……
I learned two Michael Jakcson songs last night
Me and Raissa have been with each other for the longest time and I just have to write about it. Its been like, 1 year and 4 months. Long distance which is amazing. And she is amazing. Shes so perfect. We go so perfectly with each other too. Like lately we’ve been having the same dreams. I guess we just really want to be with each other. We talk all day which is the best. We talk on the phone at night which is better. Cause I can hear her voice and cute laugh. Everything is perfect with her. I usually have anxiety attacks or paranoid about dying but when I’m with her. It dosen’t matter cause I’m not afraid of dying by her side. Somtimes I get so mad (at myself) because I don’t know how to show her I love her as mush as I do. But I know she knows I love her so much. And I know she loves me just the same. She is very special to me. And I love her with all my heart. AND ANYTHING ELSE I CAN LOVE HER WITH!! I LOVE YOU, RAISSA!!!!!!
